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Friday, 07 August 2009

  • I don't know why I thought writing a song with Frankie would be any different than doing homework with him. It is as if he expected me to be done with everything lyrical and he would just step in with some guitar solos and sing with his little tiny voice. BAH! Just like school, he was texting the whole time, we practically got nothing done. I think I am just not doing it with him anymore, I see why his band broke up =[ I get more done in 5 minutes with Osmin and 2 min with Gregg than 3 hours with Frankie.. he's just not very creative and definitely always distracted.

    He doesn't even sing! he whispers! I know I have a small voice but I TRY being louder. Frankie has two speeds: whisper and talk. and if you ask him to be louder he will play guitar louder and his voice will be even more drowned out. I even tried recording in two different tracks but idk, he doesn't really sing at all. This project was all wrong!! all wrong! bleh! working on something else for now.

Sunday, 26 July 2009

  • So many people getting married

    WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTF

    I AM SO FRUSTRATED.

    It is hard going to the library now-a-dayz because as soon as I see Eddie I forget how angry I am with him for being a pushover and I hear music in my head. Most of the time it's "you're talkin' bout my best friend!" and flashbacks of skipping in the hallways and teaching him to dance pop up in my head. All the times he picked me up by the shoulders and handed me to David, or the piggy back ride races... *sigh*. I even miss when we fight. when we were skateboarding in the creek! all the adventures! It is hard when people become such a big chunk of your life and then remove themselves from it. We still laugh and wave but it's more nostalgia than friendship. He's moving in with his girlfriend, probably getting married and definetly having a child.

    I don't want to be the one to give up on our friendship but... he never has time for us...

Monday, 20 July 2009

Thursday, 16 July 2009

  • Sometimes I'm mean

    Marina: "I don't even know why I'm here. Yeah, I said it! I wanna watch V for Vandetta!"
    Oscar: "wow... you're mean"
    Me: "sometimes I'm just mean cuz I'm nice all the time. To like balance things out. It's like... sometimes I'm mean to make up for the times I was nice and you didn't deserve it."
    Pearl: "so you're actually not nice since you are mean when he doesn't deserve it"
    Oscar: "no, it's okay, I like the way you think"
    Me: "don't try that reverse psychology shit on me! Let's roll!"
    Laura: "why are you guys always so dramatic? I would have just left without letting him know"
    Oscar: "are you leaving too?"
    Christi: "yeah, we're basically all ditching you BYE!"

Friday, 10 July 2009

  • I am making a song about Charles Darwin. I was going to have Frankie do the guitar but he didn't even know who Darwin was so he's officially shunned for a while.

    Grandpa Osmin was mad at me for living in a dorm. He very passionately wants me to live with Jonah because:
    1. Jonah needs a roommate
    2. It is cheaper
    3. I would have a real kitchen
    4. I would not have a curfew
    5. He can visit both of us at the same time.
    6. The dudes can't stand the smell of meat, so having a vegetarian living with them would be very nice.

    but... I think living with a bunch of vegan dudes who have been my student teaches at one point... is weird..

    Plus they are too much like me, older and more extreme versions of me. They are childish and quiet and a little obsessive. Their past times include talking about philosophy, bullying me, and listing their least favorite movies and musicians. I told laura I didn't want to live with Jonah because we would always be fighting. Laura said "NO you won't! you'll always be... sitting quietly." which is a very Laura thing to say. I think we would either completely clash or become best friends, because they are extremists like that. Jonah agreed about me living with him but only so I can do his Spanish homework for him..

    but nonono

    I'm moving into the dorm.

    I don't care about curfew.
    I will miss having a stove though.

Wednesday, 08 July 2009

Monday, 06 July 2009

  • You're under the impression that I'm unhappy in your absence, I'd like you to know I'm unhappy no matter what.

    lalala

    bandz want me to sing now that I have a myspace.. but I just want to play with Dani and grandpa Osmin.

    I'm very indifferent about everything nowadayz.

Friday, 26 June 2009

  • today

    is ravi's birthday yaay! I decided to open up ravi's old christmas present back from 07?
    It has been sitting in my room all this time, switching homes from one abandoned place to another.
    People have asked me what it is and I say "a time machine" or "UFO remains" because I thought having an old present was to embarrassing, especially when I could not remember what was inside. I don't give out very many presents, I usually give out cute homemade cards or cute buttons I find in antique stores, but whenever I give people stuff it is usually makeshift, fun and personal. Thus my frustration! I could not remember what was inside, I had no clue!

    After I opened it I immediately regretted it because:
    1. in 1 month it will be "5-years time" since friendship and I will probably hunt you down.
    2. I will most likely see you at alex's birthday party
    3. it would have been as much of a surprise to me as it would have been to you
    4. I will have to put it back together.

    it is ridiculous that I haven't given this to you yet. See yew soon

Wednesday, 10 June 2009

  • Eddie and I arent really friends anymore. We haven't hung out since march. I remember specifically because it was some sort of anniversary and his girlfriend called him at my house. Sid "you ave plans today?" he said "umm I'm eating pizza at Marina's you want me to pick you up?" Then she hung up. I have been officially been hated by his girlfriend for quite some time before that... but she was especially mad when we happened to go to the same hobos show, not even intentionally... an she was just really upset. Like she was being tricked or something. Fo someone wo hung out at my house a lot yescenia has not really spoken directly to me at all. when I pointed this out to laura she said "she used to be cool but .. I don't know now she got all micepacey and won't even walk to the car without eddie."

    My guy friends call eddie "pussy whipped" but I really have no idea how someone who never talks could have so much power.

    Well, all of this didn't matter to me that much until I heard he was preg-o.
    Which I heard from laura NOT eddie.
    I saw him when we went to the library and he dinn't mention having to tell me someting at all...
    It's so strange when you fall apart from one of your best friends...

Monday, 08 June 2009

  • (watching nirvana concert videos on gregg's mom's basement)

    Me: "can we please please please just be a nirvana cover band?"
    Gregg: "I'm up for that!"
    Oscar: "What the fuck? NO!"
    Me: "Please Please Please, I'm so lazy"
    Gregg (wheezy voice): "hey, aren't you not even in... the band"
    Me: "MAN I LOVE THE WAY YOU WHEEZE!!!!!!! And yeah, but I can't do nirvana covers by myself."
    Oscar: "so have you been working on some songs, nieta?"
    Me: "yeahhhh but nirvana sounds so much better"

    Peeps expect creativity to grow on trees. My creative climax is the restless hours in which I cannot sleep

    I have to make lyrics that they will be comfortable backing up. Or in this case... unpolished enough, when most of what comes from me is kid-show material... bleh. Eye Make May Selfz Six Sumtimez

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